I don’t talk about it much except to joke, but I have ADHD. Partly I don’t talk about it because it’s such a misunderstood diagnosis. For one thing, people think it means you just can’t focus on anything which is not always true. Sometimes having ADHD means you give your focus to the wrong things or give too much focus to one thing (“hyperfocusing”); it’s more about being unable to pick what you apply your focus to and when.
What does that have to do with writing? Well, everything really, because you kinda need to focus to get brainstorming done and you need to focus a lot to get words down. It means that it can sometimes take a herculean effort to just write. Everyone gets distracted, but with ADHD, getting distracted is about 140x easier and getting back on track is about 140x harder. Some days I can manage better than others. Today was not one of those days, and it wasn’t helped by the fact that there’s something critically wrong with my plot and I haven’t figured out what it is yet.
After a miserable day struggling to get anything done (except for laundry lol), I’m finally ready to sleep, and now I can write.
Which makes a perverse kind of sense: the pressure’s off because it’s time to sleep and so my mind can finally let go and let something come out and I told it that it doesn’t have to be for my novel. In fact, let’s just put that aside to marinade a bit while I just write something else. So I took Mirya from my Character webbing post and wrote a small scene with her in it. It’s a bit ridiculous but that’s what made it fun. I let go the reins and wrote what I didn’t think should happen – even more, what she thinks shouldn’t happen. Which incidentally, involves being abducted by a UFO just as she’s trying to decide if she should go for coffee instead of going home. My life is just not that interesting.
Anyway, tonight’s final word count is 862 and I’m finally ready to sleep.